19[s]You know this, my beloved brothers and sisters. Now everyone must be quick to hear, slow to speak, and slow to anger; 20for a man’s anger does not bring about the righteousness of God. 21
26If anyone thinks himself to be religious, yet does not [z]bridle his tongue but deceives his own heart, this person’s religion is worthless.
things of which I am not equiped or able to do myself consistently. Especially in considerence of bridling the tongue. But the earlier verse, is what I really need to take in and let operate. Because its always an insistance to control or take over a conversation. Believe it or not, I think in my earlier days I was a much better listener. This world has made me into a villian I think.
Last night I did do some drinking, can’t say it was justified, warranted or even necessary, Just selfish, no motive other than to please my flesh and satisfy its hunger, for more. And that is just it, for more of what? hell. The one place I had just previously spoken to my own dad about, and admonished my brothers about. Its a real place, its not at the bottom of a bottle. Its not even in a jail or prison cell. This world and man himself, will have put this foolish mistake in your head that rock bottom, is some kind of metaphore for hell,. and that isn’t right at all either. The reality of hell is worse than anything you or I can concieve or even think about into reality. But its real, and you and I both know the reminders of it.
Me being alone, I don’t hold myself accountable to anyone other than God. And in doing so, He is more than aware of my own disobedience. But we do have free will. The body is a temple, and it ought to be treated and taken care of not harmed and filled with poison and waste. I do speak out of guilt and shame, things of which this world would rather discard and call fuitillity, and blameless. If the motive in your character is to act and operate out of control, anger and hostility, then its wrong terribly wrong. And I know alcohol is a great fuel of that kind of behavior.
Well Ive said more than I would have liked, telling on myself as a good christian should. Nothing is done in the dark, its all exposed, and will be exposed. We are never without fault or blame, its in our nature, and we are sinful beings. We need Christ, and His sacrifice and life in our daily selves. Everyday picking up the cross. Its not a title of excellence or statment of pride and rebellion. Its a meager and humble title. “good and faithful servant”. Its never the first in line, its the last in line.
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