“papers here! get yer papers!”

Growing up in my house I didn’t much see the newspaper, but at my grandparents I would always find him reading the paper. It’s interesting to me, because today when I was chatting with a twitch streamer, Zethian. It made me think about all this. Those words alone newspaper, put into my brain the thoughts of labor, work and distribution.

Before I became a Christian, I would just look at everything like a blind a fool and follow the crumb trail, only to be brought wrought by a bombardment of ads and multitasked programs determining to give your computer the most brain numbingly frustration possible.

So, moving forward in life I am now at a point where my bible becomes my compass and navigator, I use it like a life preserver or a thermostat. And no, I am not God so I cannot guide or direct you where you to go in that book. But trust me He will see your eagerness and want and will beckon your call. But a lot like Job, your faith and patience and trust it is ultimately your greatest benefit and friend.

Public Relations | Social Media Canton Michigan

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a famine is a coming…

Not because of lack of food or resources, although because we are on the topic I will say that I have been trying my best to assist the community here by offering my Friday mornings to assist with the homeless men at the mission breakfast. Some of these guys are genuinely trying to get their life on track and start working on themselves. They are beginning to transition from a life of luxury to a now life of having nothing but the clothes and the shoes on your feet.

But no this has nothing to do with any of what you are thinking about! THIS is about the band THE FAMINE! these mother truckers drive fast and are on time, and by that, I mean the time signatures are perfect and it sounds great. These recordings they did with the Famine are definitely in the Embodyment -era but are now launched and out as their own proprietary blend of metal and core.

I like the energy and the message of the music it is brilliant words and yes much of what you would expect from Embodyment,

So yes, I do enjoy this album, and it is now on regular and continued rotation. And I hope to to see and hear soon new music from the famine!

What I love so much about their sound is that it has some southern charm to it. It gets down to the roots of not only political issues but society itself. I love these guys; I do hope I can meet them one day.

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Guardian Heroes – Sega Saturn – USA – 1996 – Treasure

For a treasure game this one is actually rather bare bones in consideration of the contenders I have played before it, especially when thinking about games like Gunstar Heroes, Bangai-o and Alien Soldier. The company has a gravity for odd but interesting choices in gameplay, and for lack of a better word it’s become almost essential ingredients in platformers and shooters alike.

In the kiln of Guardian Heroes this game was one of my prided purchases, yes, I had a physical copy of the USA release. It was a beautiful game and instruction booklet as well.

At that time, I really just saw the game as a novelty, I would muster up some courage and throw down for a bit, but my young mind just didn’t have the attention span or ability to complete it.

Let’s fast forward to modern day, and I now I have it again on my Saturn and was happy to say that I did defeat the game. Now whether I did it in the correct order is a sign of contention. I didn’t use a guide, and I did not have any preconceived idea about what best route to take. I will say I managed the game rather well with using Han, he does have some nice combos, and a can fire off a magical blast from his hands and it will chase the enemy and burn and possibly even knock them over. See this was something I never minded myself with before was the fact that you use the Z+C buttons to fire off your magic attacks, additionally you can also use this to alert orders to your teammate. The game while rather boring in its button mashing does have some nuance and fun mechanics to keep things interesting and rolling on.

For me what could make this game much better and enjoyable is if they made the leveling a bit better and more cohesive, also allow the time and settings be more linear. While it is fun to multiple different story routes, with little in the way of fun other than button mashing I hardly find myself wanting to get into another visit of this quickly just to alternate the story route.

That being said, the meat and potato’s I do believe are in the combat and mechanics. And while the melee fighting of Han while a bit one dimensional, and boring, it does offer some cool and interesting combos you can perform, and if you look no further than the option menu it will tell you all about the various different button combinations to perform such attacks.

After reaching close into the end, it made me realize that the mages really have a stronger offense and even defense for that matter than the other combatants. So, it does make me want to play again, but next time going with a much more magic/intelligence-based build. My initial run was pretty basic lots of STR and VIT with some LUC.

Sound and music are ok, nothing stood out or really impressed me too much but that is not to say it’s bad just wasn’t anything revolutionary. There are moments where the scene and setting does repeat a specific music or theme which was kind of redundant and I think they could have either orchestrated something new or just done away with that all together.

In the guise of the story, I haven’t the slightest, seems to be a bit of a mystery to me. Barbaric fighters in some kind of fantasy world where wizards are reining, and chaos ensues. Sorry I couldn’t be bothered to read much or entertain myself much with it, I just wanted to beat the damn game and etch it finally off my list of Saturn games.

One of the more standout titles I think, and now after its all said and done, I feel a little let down. But it’s no worry, because in reality there really is still a lot more to it than even, I have said here, and that is really saying much for a 2d brawler like this on the 2d behemoth Saturn console.

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special sega saturn stream (original hardware)

hello all saturn fans, I will be streaming tomorrow saturday (12-7-2024) at approximately 8am (eastern time) at twitch.tv/destroybaal

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ellen or feminem?

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humility and putting others first

the message at church today was on humility and putting others first. How contrary the message that is pervading into my mind on a daily basis. God, I need to do better, it’s unreal how bad I’ve become. Christ 1st > neighbor, then self.

Additionally, I was exposed to a video of a man who has become so reliant and spiraled out on alcohol. And watching and hearing him it made me so sick because I was seeing myself in him, and it made me ill. I have to do better. I know I say it a lot, but I am serious dammit, I am making a moral inventory and starting to change everything. I was able to get rid of alcohol almost completely and have also done the same with marijuana and nicotine. Bit by bit I am removing the hedges and thorns that are creating an obstacle in my life. But it’s not a one stop fix for all, it requires daily management and work.

I have to do better for not only myself, but for my son. And for my own family and the people I am not even aware of who are watching my every move and action and are judging me with a magnifying glass. And Im too damn stupid to even realize it.

2023 was the ignite in me, 2024 was the preparation, but 2025 is going to be the actual action and work. With my newfound faith in God nothing is an obstacle it’s a challenge and mountain to climb and overcome.

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sorry for my absence

me woman need roids plz

Hello all! did you miss me? I apologize for the delay in content I had an issue with my computer but am happy to say that everything is restored and back to normal.

It’s now the final calendar month of the 2024 and we will be slowly approaching 2025. I would like to say this year has been rather good to me, albeit some major setbacks.

Moving ahead I want to hopefully focus on and seriously pursue a higher education and become certified in skilled trade or even possibly spend next 4 years at getting a bachelor’s degree. It’s about time I started to take my life more seriously and I am desperate and desiring a good job that will actually provide for myself, but also for my son and my immediate family and friends.

Gaming wise been enjoying much of the same. But also including a lot of classics in there as well. Still struggling with ninja gaiden and recently been enjoying shinobi legions on the saturn.

I will be needing to find housing come February, so please bear with me as I transition into that soon.

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(tentatively) My testimony – will be updating and open to fixing or help with

My name is Trevor Markiw, I am a 40-year-old man who lives in Lansing Michigan, my date of birth is March 19, 1984. When I was born, I came into the world of a loving a family who was church going and we home schooled. My father worked as a tinsmith for General Motors and mother provided for us 5 kids a life of with school and education and the hope and future of becoming productive members of the world. I will stop here and limit this down to one person, and that will as you have guessed be me.

Growing up was a struggle, oddly enough with math and trying to survive the torment of two older brothers of whom would do some of the most insane things to me, like putting me in between 2 mattresses and jumping on them, while I am stuck in the middle of the bed. And as a group us kids thought it was a good idea, to go make a stew of our swimming pool in the backyard and it became a toxic mess and caused us to have to destroy the pool and remove it.

My father started to drink alcohol, and this was unknown to me, because he was always good to me, and my brothers and sisters. I mean he did have a temper, and he would whoop the shit out of us if we misbehaved, but that is what a dad is good for, discipline and guidance.

Needless to say, with my dad introducing alcohol into his life, and the escalating friction in the home, he was living a double life and had an affair with a woman he met at AA of all places. So, when I entered into the 4th grade, I was pushed headfirst into the public school system, all the while being home schooled and no idea about how the “real” world works.

I did ok in school, I did have troubling moments, particularly with math. I was put into special education for math, because I didn’t ever take it seriously as a kid. I just wouldn’t let myself get disciplined to learn it. And I became very truant and started skipping school and not taking it seriously. But I did eventually get to middle school, and this is where I started to notice the growth in kids came faster for others, because I was just a tadpole in waters with sharks. I was a sensitive and uptight kid, I didn’t how to fight, I got my ass kicked more ways than Sunday, by other bigger kids and it really didn’t do me any good, because I felt like I was always getting overtaken. And so, I started to get depressed and give up. This is when my psychology and my faith in God started to diminish, and I began to cope with life by accepting suicide as a solution. I did wrestle with God and it was apparently clear He was in the midst of my struggles, but I just ignored it or pushed it aside like it was nothing.

A change and transition had to begin, because my life was falling apart, and so we made the decision to put me into waverly schools and I would live with my uncle and aunt and my two cousins. This was a good change for me, but unfortunately it didn’t end up working out, and I went back to my mom’s house and started school at Sexton.

It began ok, but I was instantly pushed into all special education classes, and the teacher was this muslim guy who creeped me out. I did get the chance; to explore other avenues of studies and this excited me, but I let peer pressure and self-indulgence get the better of me. This was also the time when I was introduced to the genre of music known as death metal. A kid in my art class let me listen to some Vader and Slayer cd’s and I was hooked!

This turn of interest into evil things got the better of me, because I became fascinated with death and dying more than anything. My life became obsessed around it.

Throughout this whole experience I was actively using alcohol and any kind of drugs I could get my hands on; I had no moral compass or regard for my health or the interest of living.

I heard of a guy who used a certain combination of pills to kill himself and I attempted it myself multiple times, and all were just comas and long stays in ICU. I became more focused on trying to hang myself, and I actually passed out numb my head about to explode laying limp and ill on the floor. I’ve survived near fatal car wreck. My mom’s car was completely destroyed, and the entire vehicle was demolished except for where I was sitting.

All throughout my experiences in my life I have had audible hallucinations, they are real, and they are not from the neighbors down the street, or the vents, or the radio or random noises, they are real and evident, and I do experience whether sober or under the influence of inebriants. The worst of them, since lately have I have started to read the bible, but that is much more later into my life, but at this time yes, I am bringing it to focus.

I know the medical field will have us convinced that schizophrenia is Schizophrenia – Wikipedia – I will let you draw your own conclusions, I am not going to discuss it here. But I know better than you, that this world is spiritual and there is a battle happening in the mind between oppositions and forces that are happening every day and in this life.

Me being oppressed and under the influence of Satan with the death metal and horror movies, violent video games, everything around me was becoming vocally and visceral and very hate filled.

I started noticing odd things in the death metal world, most notebly Trevor from the band Black Dahlia Murder killing himself, Joe Pteck from broken hope blowing his head off with a shot gun, the singer from Dismember killing himself after murdering another man, and before that we are known to see the chaos and absolute degeneracy of the band Mayhem.

And furthermore, we are no lambasted with disgraceful artists like Anal Cunt, GG Allin and the absolute worst Cancer Christ. And remember the morbid angel show with collapsing building?

And all the while I am supporting and encouraging this kind of music to exist and to brainwash people, and it finally became too much. But that was the iceberg, that got me to change and repent. No, life had to become too miserable and worthless from that.

See now the lgbtq community started to lampoon their agenda of “pride” and enlightening the world of their Brillant degenerate acts of sex on normal, proactive working humans in job fields and professions simply trying to support and live their best life possible.

I was at the bottom, and I realized that the enemy was me, I was the issue I was the problem, but for better lack of words, the complete and utter decay and avalanche or morality and good behavior was being overthrown and lampooned by our very own government and political figures in power.

“For we which live are always delivered unto death for Jesus’ sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh.” – 2 Corinthians 4

This verse for better or worse stuck with me, from all my times in sober recovery and homeless shelters, I learned that verse, and it has always been echoing in my mind, it today I am making it my point and call to declare that my life is now handed over to God, and I am no longer a slave to man or the this world, because my destination is death and that is between me and the ultimate judge God Himself.

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tensions are rising and now usa targeted

Kim Jong-un has warned of the threat of nuclear war due to strained relations with the United States

The leader of North Korea, Kim Jong-un, announced the threat of a nuclear conflict on the Korean peninsula, accusing the United States of provocations and hostile policies.

He emphasized the failure of attempts to negotiate with the United States and announced the further modernization of North Korea’s weapons.

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Going to stick to my native language

I cannot and will not be able to continue making content in Ukrainian. I will try to incorporate it more on my web site, but for the time being I think it’s better going forward with the current flow as is.

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I was wrong

I made the mistake calling this person female.

Стаття, яку я опублікував раніше, стосувалась людини на ім’я Олі Лондон. Щоб зробити себе схожим на корейця, він робив операції та операції. Я не знаю, як юридично можна виконувати та дозволяти ці операції, жодна здорова людина у своєму раціональному розумі не змінила б і не повинна змінювати свій зовнішній вигляд, щоб виглядати як інша людина.

Кажуть, він звернувся до католицизму, що я ні в якому разі не коментую.

Я не католик, і я бачу, як це стає відомим серед християн. Але їхні звичаї та переконання значно відрізняються, і вони дуже шаблонні та набагато ефективніші, ніж віра та переконання, які я знайшов у читанні Біблії kjv, молитві та спільноті з іншими віруючими.

Не кажучи вже про те, що в католицьких церквах постійно висвітлюються випадки сексуального та педофілічного характеру, мені неприємно думати про це.

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Otep йде на пенсію

Вона брала участь у кампанії за геїв і лесбіянок, а тепер і про транссексуалів, і це довело її до пенсії. Вся ця епідемія гомосексуалістів виходить з-під контролю, і лише це слово є рішенням! їм бракує контролю над собою, своїми бажаннями та інтересами. Я б ніколи не хотів перевіряти історію веб-перегляду гея; Я впевнений, що ви знайдете деякі з найогидніших і найжахливіших речей.

FOR THE ENGLISH READERS THIS PICTURE DEPICTS FRONTWOMAN OF OTEP REBELLING AGAINST GOD AND SCRIPTURE

Я думаю, що настав час, щоб Америка зрозуміла, що ми хочемо бути країною переконань і стандартів, які ґрунтуються на гордості та характері та вірі в реальність Христа.

Я мало знаю про музику Otep, я трохи її слухав, і я не думаю, що це обов’язково така погана музика, чесно кажучи. Я думаю, що вона добре попрацювала на металевій сцені як жінка-вокалістка. Але вона зробила це як жінка, а жінці потрібен чоловік, щоб бути щасливою. Той факт, що вона така вперта й одержима гей-бізнесом, змушує мене думати, що їй потрібна хороша доза євангелії та реальності Христа. І так, святий дух реальний, і духовна сфера активна, і зараз між демонами та ангелами точиться боротьба та битва. Царство Небесне – місце для віруючих і тих, хто бажає, щоб люди прийшли до істини.

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Lions victory over Jaguars

This was an absolute slaughter, Lions dominating the Jaguars. There were a lot of injuries in this game, but overall, a good performance. I hope that the Lions players are keeping themselves healthy and disciplined for future games. It would be great to see them at another Superbowl!

Це була абсолютна різанина, «Леви» домінували над «Ягуарами». У цій грі було багато травм, але в цілому хороша гра. Сподіваюся, що футболісти ‘левів’ зберігають себе здоровими та дисциплінованими на майбутні ігри. Було б чудово побачити їх на черговому Супербоулі!

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Пошта України рухається вперед

Рухаючись вперед, я збираюся писати українською мовою, я хочу вивчити мову і вважаю, що це найкраще зробити. Я можу включити англійську та українську, але я поки що не впевнений.

Потік і баланс контенту, я сподіваюся, будуть надходити в хорошій кількості і виробництві.

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Diametrically different

Look at the difference between fights, the women outperformed Tyson and Paul.

And then there is the debate about the gloves w/ tyson and paul.

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Disappointed

That fight was pathetic it rigged from the start; they both knew the outcome and they both agreed and spoke to each other and made that fight happen. All we can see is the footage they want us to see, it was not a good fight, at all.

When I watched the Oleksandr Usyk, and saw that fight, it was something much different, and more real and better performance and representation of the sport of boxing.

Netflix + Jake Paul + Mike Tyson = painful miserable and desperate bs.

What I did not recognize which was the most pivotal and important aspect of this fight was the fact that Mike Tyson is a muslim.

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lets face it

striking similar in comparison if Im not mistaken.

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Very interesting

The host of sky news Australia is no doubt a woman, but the person she is talking to is guess what? also a woman.

You cannot take chemicals and drugs and have surgeries and declare yourself a female. The same goes for a male.

I understand cases of hemihedrites, to the extent that they do exist, but not any elaborate studying of them.

Do you know the kind of shit men have to deal with? and the kind of shit women have to deal with?

They are two distinct and different sexes, we need to make things simple and not complicate and waste money and resources on mutating humans into science projects, to prove that God made you as YOU ARE.

I spoke to my dad the other day and it reminded me of the movie Juno.

I liked the movie; I thought it was good at the time… nothing really stuck in my head other than the fact I thought that Ellen Page was attractive.

So, it shocked me when I found out that Ellen Page is now Elliot Page.

It’s over and done with now, this whole world has gone corrupt and delusional, and I am pissed off to no end. You are a woman! you have your pro and con just like men have theirs, there is no debate or battle against one another.

God made people in His image, and he is the master creator.

You cannot use chemicals and drugs and surgeries from doctors and then declare yourself as an opposite sex, this is terrible.

And now we have the wreckage in professional sports. And the situation of whether a man or a female or a WHOSE who? is in the which bathroom? and you have kids. It’s just getting to be a huge problem, and the people involved and responsible for making this happen need to be stopped and their practice and profession with doing these operations and procedures needs to be discontinued.

I do not care what your sexual preference is, it’s none of my business!

but what is my business is that the human race is made up of people who are born and made in God’s design.

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A hard place

A predicament a hard situation, something that is difficult to see a clear or definitive outcome with positive results. Are often presented in life, where you have to make a decisive action that can result with irreversible consequence.

It seems when your young and the world is still new and inviting, you have an invaluable amount of resource and ability to squander and to do whatever you want. But the reality is that at every stage your of life, you have this predicament.

The image you are looking at is from the video game on the NES, Ninja Gaiden, and everyone knows that at this point of the game you need to awkwardly jump between two ledges and HOPEfully at the lowest point of the left ledge to get to security.

I think of another game where a situation like this arises and it is none other than Dark Souls, when you are in Anor Londo

This event is even more intense and frustrating because you have to jump and get to an area at great heights while an archer is firing arrows at you.

Its times in these games that make me really enjoy and hate gaming, because it’s obviously and intuitively a hard spot, but you know that you can repeat the process and get better and complete it.

God made this earth, and He made each person on this earth carefully and perfectly, and we all have the ability and necessary skills to do anything that He puts in place for us.

Be wise in your decisions and carefully examine every obstacle as an opportunity, to benefit God.

All of my life has been spent on pleasing myself, pleasing man and doing things out of cowardice and fear of the repercussions of man and the physical and the flesh. But ultimately my life and my role are dedicated to God and to serve Him.

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Sons of Thunder!

Really hitting the platter more than you know.

LORD JESUS WE NEED YOU – H O P E

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