The later half of last year and into this year. I have been using viveldi. I am having some issues with youtube, but overall its the best and suitable for me. I was always a herd animal when it came to software and apps. And as I started to find the issue arising concerning integrity and security and privacy of the user, Ive tried to do my best in select apps and software.
All that to say, its not an easy task. I thought myself that linux was the solution, but in the nature of technology and its consumer ingrained mentality. Free and open source offers itself into a difficult task concerning compatibility.
For every piece of great and brilliant software the corporate mega giants are always doing their best to mitigate and squash and those applications. There is never a quick and one easy fix, its a never ending tug of war match between compatible and useful, while secure and safe.
The biggest fear I have about the internet and technology is their business with me. Even in saying that, I make no issue with sharing myself online. I dont hide myself or my opinions, I openly express myself and try and let others know what is on mind.
My only issue is when it becomes myself who is getting the feeling or idea that their individuals and person who are collecting the worst parts of me, and are make for themselves and inventory of things to damage and destroy me.
MY personality my person and humanity is changing every day, I am growing and adapting to new difficulties and things, I have the obstacle of finding solution through mental frustrations.
I just learned recently that the residence and place I live at. Their were individuals that I was living with, who recorded me without my knowing. That is the malicious and mischievous and devious nature of people these days. They like to escalate a situation and poke and prod an individual to explosion. And then orchestrate it and capture to exploit and destroy the individual.
I know its now happening to me, in every living situation. Its a maniacal and damaging defect in a person’s psychology that ushers in to themselves this needless want or desire to destroy a person, and not help them, or just for lack of a better word mind their own damn business, and live and let live.
I make no issue with others, I try and avoid conflict and mind my business. Its no detriment to me, if people get angry and volatile with me, I see the burden of life and its demands and understand the need and necessity of forgiveness. Christ first loved me, so that I might love my brother/sister. And that is a unequivocal detail that does curtail many conclusions that is complicated. Because the role and management of persons, in terms of discipline and learning and understanding this is necessary.
If I do wrong to a person, and I am unaware of this. It can continue, and it will not help myself or the offended. It is up to the offended to approach me, not as friend or adversary, or even enemy, but just on the common ground of a dispute or a grievance.
This is where alcoholic/narcotic anonymous does have privilege and purpose, because it lays it all perfectly. But that there in itself is anti-christ and anti-bible. Because its another unit another identity, its a collection and organization of individuals that are trying to shape and form minds into their identity. And if its not Christ, then its not for me.
AA and NA they are adamant of a higher power, they will not acknowledge or console and uplift Christ. This is the nagging and engrained frustration I had with it. That and the fact that I was court ordered to attend meetings. I thought to myself, this is great, I am getting a lot from this. But at the end of the day, what was the point? I wasn’t going there out of my free will, I was required, I was forced to attend. God gives man and woman free will, that is the invitation to life and not isolation and confinement, its freedom to live.
This world has many prisons and traps, and the physical traps of institutions and prisons/jails are evident unfortunately necessary. Because herein this existence does include individuals that are not looking out for your best interest, they are looking to hurt you not help you.
My issue with addiction and the management of it, is that the entity becomes separated from christ and the word of God, and it turns into a altruistic and coexist kind of thinking, which I cannot stand.
Because it does nothing to help people, but only confuse them. I see countless scenarios and situations where they agitate and provoke and encourage the humiliation and the provocation, and it does nothing but develop a unnecessary evil, which is ultimately control. And humans love to feel, like they have authority or control over another person.
I can count on both hands how many times I’ve been barbarically and inhumanely treated at hospitals, because they full well knew my history and my identity, and they didn’t help me, they exploited and provoked my weaknesses.
Satan and evil do exist, and it cannot be controlled. Its in this world and life, and it will influence the minds and people who are operating and running these institutions and facilities.
I do not trust the police or the paramedics, not anymore than I trust my own family. This world today is so volatile and disorganized, there is no cohesion or harmony. A lot of the case is to do with the fact, like I mentioned before we are distracted and confused.
And its multiple denomination’s of churches. And then its the countless other pseudo religions and mythology driven reasons and ideas.
I know one thing I like and enjoy is my peace of mind. The necessary provocation and violence should only be in and for the sake of defense. For self, family and neighbor. Eliminating and derailing the barbaric and chaotic individuals that do not encourage progress, but further wish to thwart and prevent it.
Helping your neighbor and friend is not only a good tool to meet people, but also a good benefit to the world. Instead of starring at the trash and pointing at it, be a good citizen and clean it up. See this is the distinction and knowledge I am seeing from the scriptures and not from man the invention of controlling and isolating individuals. God brings the motive and desires to help, its the holy spirit, its not something you can avoid or wrestle with, it is there and will declare the necessity and changes needed in your life and environment.
