I was previously baptised, I remember in sordid memory. My life then was on the right path but I eventually fell into addiction and fell of course, almost abandoning my faith and christianity altogether. Satan had a foothold on my life, like never before. I started to get enjoyment and consalce from satanic death metal/black metal, even grindcore – rap/hip hop, country, alternative, indie, bluegrass, contemporary you name it. Man has a motive and intention, and its death, And you better believe that at the end of this life, there is a judgment and your life on this earth does have meaning and a purpose.
Today during this sermon, it revealed to me how much in scripture that Jesus did speak about this. He would take disciples out into the water, and he would submerge into water, and that was a decleration, of their faith and purpose and life in Christ.
I haven’t been attending a physical church, with the exception of mount hope and south church… Ive randomly been in and out of different churches. Its not easy, finding a home church when you move around as much as I do. And do I rely on the bus to get around, so its not as easy as just getting into a car and driving to church.
My time and lifestyle have changed a lot recently, I have been prioritizing doing things that benefit me and not hurt me. I am far from the person I was, when I first got baptized, but I hope and pray I can get that person back.
This was encouraging to me, because christianity is not an entitlement or perfection. Its surrender, its abandoning the ways of man and their thinking, and believing Christ and the teachings from the bible.
This world is a bussiness, and its selling you lies and confusion. The church is out to help people, not hurt them or control them. They want to see people, get better and have productive fulfilling lives. The only religion in christianity is the one you bought from those tv’s preachers.
If you see a brother or sister hurting, you lift them up, not beat them down. And onto this topic of brother and sister. It actually is a meaning behind it. Because me and my biological brother have had several conversations concerning this. And his ideas come from prison and the streets. I do love my brother, but he is lost without Christ. I love my brother other biological brother too. And I love my biological sisters, but I know my sisters are believers and my two brothers are not christian. And when people these days, call each other bro, or brother, it does give you a sense of brotherhood or comradrie, but my intention and purpose in this life is serving and living for God. So, if your purpose and intention on this earth is death, then please just call me whatever nasty thing you can of, because yes, I am that, and I know that Jesus died to release me and save me from that.
And if its not Christ, its death and pleasure. I am not God and neither is anyone else. I am just another ant in this maze of life.
Go to the ant, O sluggard, Observe her ways and be wise,
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