It’s not something to easily do or accomplish on your own it takes a lot of patience and endurance to get through work and labor. I know my body starts to ache and pain and my thoughts begin to wander into, “giving up”. But the Lord gives us the ability to accomplish many things and never stumble. I found a song that reminds me of these things, it is by a Swedish man by the name of Oscar Rask, he is the musician for the band Since the Death. Enjoy.
Its been slow around here, I am still looking for new Interviews and need to finish the Klank review.
I feel like piece of shit for saying this that is because I am, not in the literal sense but in the metaphorical and or abstract kind of sense. Because as a species and a living organism we’re too fucking trapped in our own minds. And social media and the internet and all of it is a big part of the blame, but the big derailment was the covid virus spread that encouraged and put people in this isolation mindset, that did shift a lot otherwise social people into the lifestyle.
Looking at our cities and our environment we need to wake up to pollution and toxic waste. We need to figure out ways to help harvest our environment. Not destroy it and rob it. I think. My outlook lately has been on too much finger pointing and hating. I need to wake up to the fact that this life is valuable, and it deserves to be loved and shared and helped for not destroyed and abandoned and hated.
Working a shit job that sucks, and with this heat its really easy to lose your shit and get angry. And we have to be aware of that and be considerate and loving and understanding. As best as we can. Because life is above all the highest goal and achievement.
This week has been burdensome to me, because now I am seeing that I am doing too little and expecting too much. I need to live by my means and not overextend my boundaries. In these coming weeks and months, I hope to develop more into my disciple and character and start to mature and help myself, but most of all help others.
I don’t think that there is an end to suffering. In fact, I believe that people have this inescapable dilemma inside themselves where they think that traumas and suffering have an escape. The only escape from suffering is from a absolute and a directive. Until they reflect and understand that they have suffering it won’t relinquish. It will continue to fester and antagonize. I wish I would encourage a release. Perhaps even driving this insect out of its hiding. Who is scared?
I do indeed love to see fear. I love to watch fear and it makes me feel superior. Because from the beginning I’ve always wanted to feel superior. And now I do indeed know that I am actually inferior. Because I have no idea of the pain that I will endure.
And yes, I do feel superior. I feel indeed a response to even pleasure. My god I have become a monster!!! a monster? no not yet. We haven’t watched this subject be turned into the shit that he wants. There is no determination.
I think he thinks that I care.
Imagine a human being who thrives off of suffering.
They do not understand that there is a cosmological and intrinsic source that does not exist in this human realm. Indeed, this being does exist to see that justice is served.