Here is the exact time when I started to speak to him if anyone is curious and wants hear it. 0:45:55 (youtube link edit) it was a great experience, and one I dont think I’ll forget.
This happened some time ago, and I never made much attention about it, but I thought I would share it here now, for anyone who might be interested and want to hear it.
This is not something easy to diagnose or address. And I do not want fault or criticism, be put on my mother. She is a hard working woman, and doesn’t deserve the negative treatment and criticism she is getting. I love my mom, no more, no less than my dad.
One thing he helped me see, is that my relationship with parent is now absolved, and I am alone on this rock. And its up to me now, to make whatever life is possible.
One thing that is painfully obvious about the death and resurrection of Christ. Is that He died for all sins, its not me but Christ. I do recall CS Lewis saying something, similar in the vein, “God forgave the inexcusable in me, so why cant I excuse the deplorable in you?”, and its a distressing question.
This life is not easy, but you aren’t living if your not trying. Never give up, and don’t stop progress. When you stop working, it delays progress.
There is a heaven, and its benefit is the unimaginable good that you do for those in this life. The sacrifice and battle, the gnawing gripping fight. It develops us into a person of God.
The pilgrims progress, was an allegorical tale, of the Christian walk. And its a good look into the reality of the battle and frustration of this life.
