I know this is like a broken record. But my life and my activities do not reflect that of a christian. I am fully aware myself in my own effort cannot at all please God or the kingdom.
But I am not doing the least of Christian activity, such as attending a church. My daily routine or prayer and bible reading have all but stopped.
My faith is solid, I believe and am encouraged by nothing more than God and Christ. I am not abandoning Christianity, but I am fully aware of myself and how I act and operate.
Its odd to me, how much more disciplined and productive I was when I got out of jail. It took maybe 2 days before I was back in a bad routine.
For me personally I was actively involved in satanic metal music for a long time. My behavior and my operating on the internet, is now fully consumed with portraying or acknowledging Christianity. For the purpose and reason to not persuade or give anyone any idea that I do not believe an acknowledge Christ and the teachings of the bible.
I suppose this all came into fruition when I was watching the interview between Sophie Rain(sp?) and vladTV. She was outspoken about Christianity. But her lifestyle and the fact that her money comes from pornography. Is anything but christian, its actually anti-christ.
The conundrum with Christianity. I am sorry this is rather redundant, and I hope my thoughts are conveyed correctly. If nothing more, this is a reminder to do better. And to hopefully get myself back on track. And honestly this is the beauty of Christ, because there is always an aim and desire to do better. To ultimately live our best life.
