I was previously baptised, I remember in sordid memory. My life then was on the right path but I eventually fell into addiction and fell of course, almost abandoning my faith and christianity altogether. Satan had a foothold on my life, like never before. I started to get enjoyment and consalce from satanic death metal/black metal, even grindcore – rap/hip hop, country, alternative, indie, bluegrass, contemporary you name it. Man has a motive and intention, and its death, And you better believe that at the end of this life, there is a judgment and your life on this earth does have meaning and a purpose.
Today during this sermon, it revealed to me how much in scripture that Jesus did speak about this. He would take disciples out into the water, and he would submerge into water, and that was a decleration, of their faith and purpose and life in Christ.
I haven’t been attending a physical church, with the exception of mount hope and south church… Ive randomly been in and out of different churches. Its not easy, finding a home church when you move around as much as I do. And do I rely on the bus to get around, so its not as easy as just getting into a car and driving to church.
My time and lifestyle have changed a lot recently, I have been prioritizing doing things that benefit me and not hurt me. I am far from the person I was, when I first got baptized, but I hope and pray I can get that person back.
This was encouraging to me, because christianity is not an entitlement or perfection. Its surrender, its abandoning the ways of man and their thinking, and believing Christ and the teachings from the bible.
This world is a bussiness, and its selling you lies and confusion. The church is out to help people, not hurt them or control them. They want to see people, get better and have productive fulfilling lives. The only religion in christianity is the one you bought from those tv’s preachers.
If you see a brother or sister hurting, you lift them up, not beat them down. And onto this topic of brother and sister. It actually is a meaning behind it. Because me and my biological brother have had several conversations concerning this. And his ideas come from prison and the streets. I do love my brother, but he is lost without Christ. I love my brother other biological brother too. And I love my biological sisters, but I know my sisters are believers and my two brothers are not christian. And when people these days, call each other bro, or brother, it does give you a sense of brotherhood or comradrie, but my intention and purpose in this life is serving and living for God. So, if your purpose and intention on this earth is death, then please just call me whatever nasty thing you can of, because yes, I am that, and I know that Jesus died to release me and save me from that.
And if its not Christ, its death and pleasure. I am not God and neither is anyone else. I am just another ant in this maze of life.
this is not an easy topic and one that is swept under the rug, and for good reason, out of sight out of mind. But its beyond, painful when we see persons of high regard give up, it sends a message of neglect and fault to those who looked up to them. And this is the principal matter why, your mind must be set on God, and not man, and this temporary pleasures of life. Its a distraction, and a vice grip, to get you out of the fight and instead wasting time in a turmoil and conflict with self.
This was bit unsettling, because in this audio recording you learn that a primative tribe was in hysterics in consideration of suicide. They couldn’t understand for the life them, why anyone would choose to kill themselves. Impressionable people, deluded by mans sin and hurt. This is the same kind of sickness that jim jones did to countless innocent people. Its disgusting, and ruthless and barbaric.
No I am not against making money, in fact I need one, desperately. But this isn’t about making money, its about facts and not anything to do with religion or any offering plates. Going to church is not christianity, its a step and tool to a better life.
Transforming your life and making change happens through discipline guidance and wisdom. I never had a dad around, and if I am being honest not much of a mom around either. I have had to figure out life on my own, but one thing that has kept my parents and other family alive and living productive lifes is christianity.
Fact of the matter is, there is a God up in that sky who created this earth and He does want to know you.
If there is one thing you can take away from this video, it should be to go to your bible first and to search it like treasure, it will reveal your solution and answers.
And the world does operate and function under freewill and the rebellion of our sin nature is real and apprent, in all of us. It takes courage to not sin, and to choose Christ.
I have no idea what he is cooking up, but I hope for a change, his music starts to give respect and love to the person who gives life, and that is Christ. I am a fan of Esham’s music, I loved his work. I listened to Kkkill the fetus, and Doubeliveingod? by Natas. I’ve listened to ICP’s music as well, from Carnival of Carnage, to Riddle Box. This is not a opportunity to encourage and support sin, or misbhevior. The world is failing, its sin, and its my problem, its your problem, its our problem. Togeher.
I rember watching that movie Big Money Hustlas and it made me hate them. Not esham, but it made me hate ICP. Because they disrepected the church, in a way that I had I never seen.
I dont know anything about gold, or age. I am now just beginning to live life myself. I am going to be turning 42 next year, God willing.
Go out into all the world and preach the gospel and proclaim Jesus. Why is it that we spend all this money and resources to have them go out into 3rd world countries and other places. And now America is becoming ovverturned and run by the same tyrants and evil, that we are risking the lives of innocent people to help spread the gospel?
The USA needs to stand together as christian. Because if you think going to church on sunday is bad. You better believe that, that torture and hate that you see in the videos from isis and terrorists, is going to be coming to your neighborhood here in america.
19[s]You know this, my beloved brothers and sisters. Now everyone must be quick to hear, slow to speak, and slow to anger; 20for a man’s anger does not bring about the righteousness of God. 21
26If anyone thinks himself to be religious, yet does not [z]bridle his tongue but deceives his own heart, this person’s religion is worthless.
things of which I am not equiped or able to do myself consistently. Especially in considerence of bridling the tongue. But the earlier verse, is what I really need to take in and let operate. Because its always an insistance to control or take over a conversation. Believe it or not, I think in my earlier days I was a much better listener. This world has made me into a villian I think.
Last night I did do some drinking, can’t say it was justified, warranted or even necessary, Just selfish, no motive other than to please my flesh and satisfy its hunger, for more. And that is just it, for more of what? hell. The one place I had just previously spoken to my own dad about, and admonished my brothers about. Its a real place, its not at the bottom of a bottle. Its not even in a jail or prison cell. This world and man himself, will have put this foolish mistake in your head that rock bottom, is some kind of metaphore for hell,. and that isn’t right at all either. The reality of hell is worse than anything you or I can concieve or even think about into reality. But its real, and you and I both know the reminders of it.
Me being alone, I don’t hold myself accountable to anyone other than God. And in doing so, He is more than aware of my own disobedience. But we do have free will. The body is a temple, and it ought to be treated and taken care of not harmed and filled with poison and waste. I do speak out of guilt and shame, things of which this world would rather discard and call fuitillity, and blameless. If the motive in your character is to act and operate out of control, anger and hostility, then its wrong terribly wrong. And I know alcohol is a great fuel of that kind of behavior.
Well Ive said more than I would have liked, telling on myself as a good christian should. Nothing is done in the dark, its all exposed, and will be exposed. We are never without fault or blame, its in our nature, and we are sinful beings. We need Christ, and His sacrifice and life in our daily selves. Everyday picking up the cross. Its not a title of excellence or statment of pride and rebellion. Its a meager and humble title. “good and faithful servant”. Its never the first in line, its the last in line.
