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what has been going on my mind recently
I do enjoy streaming and making these videos. But from my experience the conversations I have there have only brought me maybe 2-3 (5 tops!) real actual people.
And on this topic, I am learning how more streamers of whom which I like, and respect do not actually feel the same way about me. So, this gives me the idea that maybe they have actually looked into my content, and they have pegged me as a waste of their time.
A lot of these guys are the most manipulative and egotistical and hateful souls I’ve unfortunately had the displeasure of making their acquaintance. I do however know how lost and miserable I was when I believed as they did. So, I express my love and encouragement to them regardless.
It’s really baffling to me, how people use platforms like twitch, youtube and then ko-fi, patreon and donations, memberships and several other paywalls as well, and then they speak and behave rudely to individuals.
Listen if I do behave arrogantly and treat you with hatred and rage, please address it as such. But if you disagree with my views or opinions, then that is simply not my problem, and I will not conform to your idea of reality because it is not my own.
Imagine you start a business, and you say only person b, g and d are allowed to spend their money at the establishment. Imagine the loss of profit from person a, c, e, f etc. etc.
Sadly, I came to this conclusion last night while in captainapoc chat on twitch. A person of which Ive always enjoyed watching and hanging out with, but I noticed he started to refer to me in a condescending and rude manner.
And I have noticed this from many others namely amackert (gameplay and talk), koolduder and worst of all goati_
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