When I was new to my faith, I always enjoyed teachings from Watchman Nee, CS Lewis and Ravi Zacharias. (I am aware of the scandals and Ravi Zacharias, I learned of this man prior to all of those allegations. I never met the man, I don’t know him myself. And its none of my business. That is between his family and the victims involved -which by the way, his words dont lose any truth or impact because of his sin) As I got older in my faith, I started to discover RC Sproul and that led me to Voddie Beaucham and now John MacArthur.
And as it so happens, he most recently passed away at 86. I was encouraged by his preaching, because of his confidence and straightforward approach to the bible, much of the same reason I appreciated RC Sproul and others. I don’t know his lifestyle or his work ethic, what kind of foods he likes, movies, books etc. but from what I can see and tell from his speaking, he shared Christ, and Christ alone.
I was unfortunately roped into a video by the youtube algorithm, by a person I am sure had good intentions. But when I went over the footage, and realized that it was a audio feed and not an actual documented video of him speaking, then I knew for certain it must be AI manipulated. I see videos all over youtube of people talking and saying things, and it is not from the actual person. We are living in a very deceptive and manipulating culture. And its no far stretch, because that is exactly how the devil himself works and operates in this very world.
Doctors and man had a prescription to fix me. It turns out, all they had was drugs, and dialectics and breathing exercises. Nothing could fix me, but now I know that Christ blood is the reality and becoming of a Christian. I had been on so many prescribed different psychiatric drugs, and they left me numb, and without appetite. I had confidence in the doctor, but not anymore. Yes, I do believe that surgeons and medically trained professionals do have the ability and the knowledge to help people, but they are not all Christian. You don’t know what a person believes until you actually you sit and speak with them, and learn about them.
I cannot fathom myself having the ability to perform surgeries or operations on people, but I know God works and He leads men and women into the path and role that is intended for them in this life. We do all have a purpose. And maybe its not, a surgeon or a doctor, maybe its filling gas, or working at a grocery store. The supernatural ability of God is REAL and ALIVE and it happens spontaneously and miraculously. I myself am an example of that. I should not be alive, if you asked me at the age of 20 if I would ever make it out alive, I wouldn’t know because I don’t when my time is up! but I do know that, I narrowly escaped a fatal automobile accident, fell from a belt around my neck, and woke up without any idea of what happened. But the bruises reminded me that I had went so far gone, and without hope.
Christ did walk on this earth, and he traveled through this earth and died on golgotha.
Ive never given my whole testimony, formally or verbally in person anywhere. I had the idea to do it on youtube, and I thought this makes no sense, because my life is not over, I am still here walking on this earth and am trying to make ends meet. I am not a member of a church currently, I was going to Mt Hope for a short time, but then I moved, and now I am searching for a new church family. I very well can stay with Mt Hope, or search around for something more local. Just last Sunday I enjoyed church with my mother and my grandparents and uncle.
I have become very isolated, and antisocial. Especially after covid. That was both the burden and the cure. Because for once I had the ability to take time for myself. Moving forward I want to continue working through this website and computers. I am going to become more stable, and get myself a wife and start being a better dad for my son. OR if he would rather just call me Trevor, that is fine too. Because whether he knows it or not, I do love him, and so does Jesus. And its because of Christ love, that I am encouraged and uplifted to share so much of my life with you.
Life is work, with or without God, but without Him, I am a miserable waste and a poor excuse of a human. I have never felt better in all my life, then this current day. And its been through reading and prayer. And communicating with other believers and unbelievers, albeit a lot on-line. But yes, I do actually speak and interact with others in the IRL, believe it or not. I am kind of a dork, and get anxious, shy, awkward and angry or even happy. I am a human being.
I know a majority are not going to be happy with me, to hear me speak about Christianity. But I am, and I will, for all of my days on this earth. So help me, until the Lord returns and takes me home, this web site and my writings will indeed be my testimony.
John now has passed, and he met his maker, that is something between himself and God. No person on this earth has the authority or the knowledge to say whether a person is saved or not. This is the business of man and God. This is exactly why I have never been a fan of the catholic church, and the whole idea of calling a priest “father”, when in the scriptures itself says, no man should become between you and the Father, that father being God.
Maybe I have watched too many movies and not been around enough Catholics, to even know if this was just something put onto me from film or whether it is in the real world and practiced today, where clergy and believers call their priest “father”.
Do you think I consider a man whom is dressed in a suite and his life is in the church is any more considerable an effort, then a man who is a believer and is out on the front lines of war, or behind a prison cell? see this is where the reality of life and the situation and balance of living does reflect on a person, because I do believe to an extent that your lifestyle and its trajectory does make an impact on your walk with God. If I am around, Christians and not exposed to real world, then who exactly am I witnessing to and sharing my faith? I admire men and woman who work in the secular world and are believers.
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