I have lived now for 41 years on this earth. And when I think of Mortification, my brain ignorantly and arrogantly groans and points to one album, and that is the Scrolls of the Megiloth. I very well might be the person to blame for all the barking and telling of it. But undeniably underneath the surface is a oystered rock and crevice that I had not noticed or seen.
Scrolls era Mortification while foundational and standard in death metal music, these later releases escaped me. I think a lot of it to do with, maybe maturity, ego or downright delusional. This music performed and presented here is nothing short of a masterpiece in the guitar virtuosity!
Steve Rowe whether he knows it or not, him not unlike Billy from Discern, or the guys from Living Sacrifice, they or we.. we’re all, in this together!
First we had people telling that lead was the ingredient that was causing serial killers, to go apeshit and kill people. And now they are saying its, advantageous. Sounds to me like a whole lot of, mystery and unsolved problems. But most importantly, the world itself sin and the bible and the spirit world. Its all truth, and fact. This reality of the invisible is evident, supernatural occurrences to occur and unexplainable phenomena do happen. I am not a snake oil salesman, and I don’t promise you any cure for to illness gimmick, its a simple path, one that requires logic, sense, and a desire to grow and become a better person.
It isn’t over night, and it wont just spontaneously happen, in fact, the grit and gnawing pain of it, is that its your human nature to hate progress. We are object to sin, and are living in a material world where the physical and spiritual world collide. Christ is the solution, our objection is the flesh and its insatiable desire for sin.
The only solution is peace, rest and time with the Lord. Reading the word daily, fellowship with other believers. And having worthwhile relationships and friendships. And I mean that! the core motivater and divider of anything is hate and separation. This is where satan painfully works to separate us. Its in arguments, disagreements, rebuttals, grumbling and general not getting along behavior. I know this well, I was was one that would question and raise a threat or opposition, but it was no good or of any use. You know? because believe it or not, they did know better than me. It wasn’t their fault, it was my own arrogance and cowardice and pride, that wouldn’t come to terms with the fact, that they do have authority, and its been given by their dedication and work that they have put into the place of work, and especially place in the church.
This is the dangerous territory. Where I got too comfortable, I started to empathize with the loser. And its like building a mansion on shaky ground, or a bad foundation. Its narcism, its ego and pride and its ultimately shame and slander.
When it comes to twitch and youtube, and even gaming in general austin was and is a person I looked up to when it comes to learning the ins and outs of gaming. I do not support homosexuality, or transgenderism. If he is into that kind of thing, that is his choice. But I know for a fact that the bible impliciticly states and describes human anatomy as female and male. And the natural and reproductive purpose of sex, is heterosexuality.
I don’t know why he banned me from his chat, and I dont know why koolduder banned me. I do know why, some other people banned me. And that is because they just downright dont like me, or hate me. And honestly, maybe Austin himself does indeed hate me, but that is of no consequence to me.
Because I respect his work and his content, and as long as it is on freely on the internet I will enjoy it. And I will enjoy the memories I had with him and the other people I met throughout my time of watching and being a part of the online gaming community, as it is.
No LGBTQ person is going to convince me of anything, except for the fact that the bible explicitly and specifically is against immoral and degernate sexual practices.
I know that religion, especially christianity is not liked. But one thing about religion and not Christ or the bible, is that religion is a system and detail and practice of beliefs that are not objectively true. The pharisee’s where the same ones then that wanted destroy Christ.
I am putting this back up, not because of hate, but because austin is choosing to remain online and pursuing his web site and streaming, albeit he does ban me, and doesn’t give me any reason or explaination why.
Which is the case with koolduder, jaxgaming and the countless others, who actually think that banning a person from chat without explaination is ok, which its not. But thats ok, because its no sweat off my back, I can take a hint and kick rocks. But I do have a friend and His name is Jesus Christ, and that man saved me, and He can save you.
with all of that aside, here is our original interview we had.
When reflecting on the video game circuit on YouTube it’s easy to remember AVGN and the popular channels that saturated the platform. For me one of the channels that may have gone under the radar of most mainstream channels, is none other than Gameplay and Talk with Austin Mackert. A die-hard gamer that holds no bias when it comes to console or pc games, he is even avid pinball player. For me what got me hooked was his live feeds he would do on Thursday nights, and later his active streams on twitch. What started out for me was watching his gameplay to better achieve success for myself, later became an active gaming community that I thoroughly enjoyed participating in.
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Q: What got you into making you tube videos?
The short of it is I was inspired by other video creators at the time (roughly 2007 to 2009), like Lukemorse1, Derek Alexander (Happy Video Game Nerd), and a host of video creators on Retroware TV’s web site. I did have what I felt to be a unique upbringing when it came to videogames, always being around them and always playing them, but then also collecting them after a point and experimenting with the less popular/more obscure games and consoles that a lot of people missed out on. With those experiences I felt I had something to offer that others making videos at the time may have not.
I had no prior experience with video recording, but since the standard at the time was simply shooting your TV with a camcorder, I invested in one and just went for it. It was pretty ghetto in the early days, but as I tend to tell people, you’ve got to start somewhere. The initial focus was just playing a game and talking about it (hence the name, “Gameplay and Talk”), giving my opinions but also talking about the gameplay and mechanics. About a year and a half in I got my first capture card and began toying with the idea of full playthrough recordings with commentary on top, and then that led into the idea of live Let’s Plays, and eventually live streams starting in 2015. I’ve been a mix of those later two formats ever since, with less of a focus on opinions and more of a focus on showing people how to play the games I show off.
Q: What’s your earliest childhood memory with video games?
Playing the Atari VCS/2600 in my Mom and Dad’s basement in the early ’80s. They owned that console prior to when I was born, so you can say videogames were basically there for me right from day one. I distinctly recall being scared by the sights and sounds of games like Missile Command. Big, booming, and scary for a toddler.
There may have been earlier experiences that I don’t recall. For instance, my parents still have a photo of baby me in a Pac-Man shirt, and I probably wasn’t even 1 year old by that time. I can see it in the photo, but I naturally don’t remember the actual experience first-hand. (edited)
Q: was your brother or any other family friend an influence in you getting into gaming?
Nope, my brother didn’t exist for the first four years of my life (he’s the younger one) and my parents already had a 2600 when I was born, so the influence was there right out of the gate. When we moved from the city I was born in to where we currently reside (Fairfax, VA, roughly 1986 or 1987), I did meet neighbors and make friends with people that owned both the Sega Master System and Nintendo Entertainment System, and both would have a huge influence on me. The NES in particular, as it was the more common of the two around here. (edited)
Q: One thing I’ve never been able to pinpoint is your interest in music, what are some of your favorite bands or artists? whether it be music or any other creative outlet for that matter.
I’d say I have a wide variety of tastes, in a limited sort of way, if that makes any sense. I generally prefer music that’s melodic and moody, often times depressing, a lot of times simplistic but edgy at the same time (you can likely thank all the videogame music in my upbringing for that).
Music is a big part of my life and it’s been a long journey forming my current-day tastes. These days I find myself bouncing back and forth between hard rock/heavy metal and electronic music (particularly trance, progressive house, breakbeats and the occasional drum ‘n bass).
Some of my current “all-time favorite” rock/metal bands are Zeromancer, Paradise Lost, Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson, Eisbrecher, A Perfect Circle and Linkin Park’s earlier output. For the electronic side of things, there’s so much to pick from and a lot of artists that only have a small range of output, but Adam Freeland is pretty much the greatest of all time in my book, so his stuff gets a ton of rotation here. The Crystal Method never fails, and since I’ve also been playing a lot of BeatmaniaIIDX again and hearing a bunch of trance, I’ve been rotating and zoning out to a bunch of older trance mixes by Armin Van Buuren (via his State of Trance album series).
Q: Please with all due respect, Way of the Warrior is not that, “bad” of a game, why the hell do you hate it so much?
“Hate” is a strong word. That said, I do not like the game very much. I find the framerate inconsistent and choppy, the gameplay unresponsive, the jump arc irritatingly tall, and the visuals generally ugly. Keep in mind I was raised on smooth, polished arcade fighting games, like Street Fighter II, Mortal Kombat II, Primal Rage, Killer Instinct 1 and 2, Virtua Fighter, among others. By the time I got around to playing Way of the Warrior, it was already one of the goofiest things in the genre (Shadow: War of Succession aside). Maybe one of these days I’ll put more time into it and it’ll finally “click”, but I doubt it.
Q: Were “shumps” or “shooters” a first love interest, or did it take you a lot of time to get into them?
That’s interesting to ponder, because when I was growing up, everyone played just about everything, and we didn’t really think of things as “genres” so much as whether the game was fun or not. It was honestly like that for me until the PlayStation and Saturn era, where I first gained access to the internet and stumbled upon dedicated communities for these “genres” (for example, shmups.com). Shoot ’em ups are absolutely one of my favorite genres today and I spend an excessive amount of time playing them (and have since the ’90s), but I wouldn’t say that was the case in the late ’80s and early ’90s. I had favorites all over the place, some were shooters, many were not.
Q: Future plans? goals or ambitions you want to share?
Just keep chopping away at this wood we call “YouTube”, and hope my channel continues to grow. I don’t have any major projects off the top of my head, but I’ve traditionally been pretty random and spontaneous with the things I create (that’s how my recent “shorts” video content came to be), so who knows what I’ll come up with in the future.
If this web site is any benefit to you, and you want to collobrate or work with me. I am open and willing to accept any invitations. But I will only work with people who are christian. I don’t make any money from this web site, what do you think I should? if anyone thinks what I am doing here is good or profitable let me know. And I will continue this site and my work, online.
I was previously baptised, I remember in sordid memory. My life then was on the right path but I eventually fell into addiction and fell of course, almost abandoning my faith and christianity altogether. Satan had a foothold on my life, like never before. I started to get enjoyment and consalce from satanic death metal/black metal, even grindcore – rap/hip hop, country, alternative, indie, bluegrass, contemporary you name it. Man has a motive and intention, and its death, And you better believe that at the end of this life, there is a judgment and your life on this earth does have meaning and a purpose.
Today during this sermon, it revealed to me how much in scripture that Jesus did speak about this. He would take disciples out into the water, and he would submerge into water, and that was a decleration, of their faith and purpose and life in Christ.
I haven’t been attending a physical church, with the exception of mount hope and south church… Ive randomly been in and out of different churches. Its not easy, finding a home church when you move around as much as I do. And do I rely on the bus to get around, so its not as easy as just getting into a car and driving to church.
My time and lifestyle have changed a lot recently, I have been prioritizing doing things that benefit me and not hurt me. I am far from the person I was, when I first got baptized, but I hope and pray I can get that person back.
This was encouraging to me, because christianity is not an entitlement or perfection. Its surrender, its abandoning the ways of man and their thinking, and believing Christ and the teachings from the bible.
This world is a bussiness, and its selling you lies and confusion. The church is out to help people, not hurt them or control them. They want to see people, get better and have productive fulfilling lives. The only religion in christianity is the one you bought from those tv’s preachers.
If you see a brother or sister hurting, you lift them up, not beat them down. And onto this topic of brother and sister. It actually is a meaning behind it. Because me and my biological brother have had several conversations concerning this. And his ideas come from prison and the streets. I do love my brother, but he is lost without Christ. I love my brother other biological brother too. And I love my biological sisters, but I know my sisters are believers and my two brothers are not christian. And when people these days, call each other bro, or brother, it does give you a sense of brotherhood or comradrie, but my intention and purpose in this life is serving and living for God. So, if your purpose and intention on this earth is death, then please just call me whatever nasty thing you can of, because yes, I am that, and I know that Jesus died to release me and save me from that.
And if its not Christ, its death and pleasure. I am not God and neither is anyone else. I am just another ant in this maze of life.
this is not an easy topic and one that is swept under the rug, and for good reason, out of sight out of mind. But its beyond, painful when we see persons of high regard give up, it sends a message of neglect and fault to those who looked up to them. And this is the principal matter why, your mind must be set on God, and not man, and this temporary pleasures of life. Its a distraction, and a vice grip, to get you out of the fight and instead wasting time in a turmoil and conflict with self.
This was bit unsettling, because in this audio recording you learn that a primative tribe was in hysterics in consideration of suicide. They couldn’t understand for the life them, why anyone would choose to kill themselves. Impressionable people, deluded by mans sin and hurt. This is the same kind of sickness that jim jones did to countless innocent people. Its disgusting, and ruthless and barbaric.
No I am not against making money, in fact I need one, desperately. But this isn’t about making money, its about facts and not anything to do with religion or any offering plates. Going to church is not christianity, its a step and tool to a better life.
Transforming your life and making change happens through discipline guidance and wisdom. I never had a dad around, and if I am being honest not much of a mom around either. I have had to figure out life on my own, but one thing that has kept my parents and other family alive and living productive lifes is christianity.
Fact of the matter is, there is a God up in that sky who created this earth and He does want to know you.
If there is one thing you can take away from this video, it should be to go to your bible first and to search it like treasure, it will reveal your solution and answers.
And the world does operate and function under freewill and the rebellion of our sin nature is real and apprent, in all of us. It takes courage to not sin, and to choose Christ.
I have no idea what he is cooking up, but I hope for a change, his music starts to give respect and love to the person who gives life, and that is Christ. I am a fan of Esham’s music, I loved his work. I listened to Kkkill the fetus, and Doubeliveingod? by Natas. I’ve listened to ICP’s music as well, from Carnival of Carnage, to Riddle Box. This is not a opportunity to encourage and support sin, or misbhevior. The world is failing, its sin, and its my problem, its your problem, its our problem. Togeher.
I rember watching that movie Big Money Hustlas and it made me hate them. Not esham, but it made me hate ICP. Because they disrepected the church, in a way that I had I never seen.
I dont know anything about gold, or age. I am now just beginning to live life myself. I am going to be turning 42 next year, God willing.
Go out into all the world and preach the gospel and proclaim Jesus. Why is it that we spend all this money and resources to have them go out into 3rd world countries and other places. And now America is becoming ovverturned and run by the same tyrants and evil, that we are risking the lives of innocent people to help spread the gospel?
The USA needs to stand together as christian. Because if you think going to church on sunday is bad. You better believe that, that torture and hate that you see in the videos from isis and terrorists, is going to be coming to your neighborhood here in america.
its a radical and sadistic religion. Don’t let the cherade that mask that satan is throwing over your eyes. Its a false religion, and one of only terror and death.
See we did have good entertainment growing up, it was no stranger to us. Its just too bad, that all I had was the negativity and fake and nasty talk. See mr rogers was doing a good service and helping children. But ya know what I heard from others? “pedo!! he wants to get to the kids….” or some kind of nasty rhetoric that would pervert his name and distort his image and value. As a kid hearing things like that to me, it did tarnish and hurt his actual role and responsibality to me.
I remember as a kid we had a neighbor up the road. Those people between the kids and the dad, they would do everything us. The dad would take us on bike rides to go visit the airport, he would play baseball with us, play basketball in the front yard. They were good people, just good natured and were always willing to enjoy an opportunity to hang out and enjoy a leiesure activity with us.
I remember kids and even neighbors would make up rumors and gossip about them. And it would piss me off to no end, because it creates a fake narrative and it perverts their name and image to others. Life and death is in the power of the tongue. You do either speak life into a person or death. Whether or not a person is a super human or not, is a tale for a different day. But its about damn time, people start encouraging and helping one another, and not heaping these coals of guilt and shame on one another. I know this better than anyone, because I did a good deal of it myself. Ive had a bad programming in my mind growing up. But through reading the bible and praying and developping myself both physcially, mentally and spiritually, it has made a huge change and impact.
The next time you see somebody out and about doing good, congratulate or encourage it, dont discourage it.
Now if you are a lgbtq person, your in the interest of getting help. Not being a source of help to others. You have trauma and sexual abuse and have a false idea of gender and roles of sex. You need to learn your true identity and purpose, and that comes from God, the one who sent Jesus.
We have a world with some good intentioned people. But we need adjusted and aligned individuals helping others.
This heresy and rhetoric or the muslim religion is a tyranny and a vile and hell seeping into our civilized society and world. We need to combat and work against that spread and tolerance. We need to strengthen our Christian ideals and ideas and devlop them, and establish them, so they will overcome and become our normal. Its not about being perfect, its about knowing 1+1=2, basic, and objective truths and values.
19[s]You know this, my beloved brothers and sisters. Now everyone must be quick to hear, slow to speak, and slow to anger; 20for a man’s anger does not bring about the righteousness of God. 21
26If anyone thinks himself to be religious, yet does not [z]bridle his tongue but deceives his own heart, this person’s religion is worthless.
things of which I am not equiped or able to do myself consistently. Especially in considerence of bridling the tongue. But the earlier verse, is what I really need to take in and let operate. Because its always an insistance to control or take over a conversation. Believe it or not, I think in my earlier days I was a much better listener. This world has made me into a villian I think.
Last night I did do some drinking, can’t say it was justified, warranted or even necessary, Just selfish, no motive other than to please my flesh and satisfy its hunger, for more. And that is just it, for more of what? hell. The one place I had just previously spoken to my own dad about, and admonished my brothers about. Its a real place, its not at the bottom of a bottle. Its not even in a jail or prison cell. This world and man himself, will have put this foolish mistake in your head that rock bottom, is some kind of metaphore for hell,. and that isn’t right at all either. The reality of hell is worse than anything you or I can concieve or even think about into reality. But its real, and you and I both know the reminders of it.
Me being alone, I don’t hold myself accountable to anyone other than God. And in doing so, He is more than aware of my own disobedience. But we do have free will. The body is a temple, and it ought to be treated and taken care of not harmed and filled with poison and waste. I do speak out of guilt and shame, things of which this world would rather discard and call fuitillity, and blameless. If the motive in your character is to act and operate out of control, anger and hostility, then its wrong terribly wrong. And I know alcohol is a great fuel of that kind of behavior.
Well Ive said more than I would have liked, telling on myself as a good christian should. Nothing is done in the dark, its all exposed, and will be exposed. We are never without fault or blame, its in our nature, and we are sinful beings. We need Christ, and His sacrifice and life in our daily selves. Everyday picking up the cross. Its not a title of excellence or statment of pride and rebellion. Its a meager and humble title. “good and faithful servant”. Its never the first in line, its the last in line.
We are the target of church attacks. We have a person committing suicide from the macanac bridge and now we see a fireball from the sky?! and that is just in the span of a few months. I cant imagine what the rest of the world is facing and going through in america. Its not exactly normal activity I would say.
With the charlie kirk shooting. And before that trump almost being asinanted, things are are looking very critical.
We need to be in prayer in reading the word. I dont do enough, and I will tell you. When I do give myself the time and opportunity. But that is just it, I have that liberty and luxery. And I know most people do not. So just know you are important and be encouraged and uplifted. And have a great week.
They are a threat and a enemy. This country was built and made by christian men and women! if muslims want to do what muslims do, than go do it in afghanistan! leave that demonic heap of shit out of america!
They are too involved in the gaming space. They are mixing their love of the game and its a job, a career. It should go without saying, that its not a good idea to be involved in the actual product that you are trying to sell to the public. Your own interest in the game conflicts itself with the game.
This is the whole idea around seperating life and social things, from work and career. Your mind and your priorities need to be focused on whatever project or function you are into.
I could nitpick about the way the game is very overtly sexual, and it borders into pornography. I could go into this more, but it sets me up for conversations, that I am not interested in neither having or entertaining, its toxic environment and I know better than to feed flames.
The biggest thing that pisses me off about black desert is that it goes over the top almost to the point of just devestating and humilating the competition. But what they refuse to consider or take any interest in, is the fact that, the game is built and focused around doing arbitrary, chores and rummaging, and life and simulation and blah blah blah. They are literally trying to throw in the whole blender into this titanic, and then they insist on books and journals and quests and side this, side of that. And you know what? I cannot and will not keep doing it. Its been a somewhat fun 4-5 years of that game, hardly more than casual at it. That game has more potential than any other video game I can think of, and to watch them, operate and function that trainwreck the way they do, is painful! but there aint no shot in hell, I will ever be able to work for them, especially, after writing this.
Needless to say, the game has become a soap opera and its just dramatic and chatty and not fun. Its less of a video game. And more of a life sim or some shit, I really dont know. It does have a video game in there, and I do like the video game parts of it, but if they could just get their head out of their asses and figure out what genre or focus they want to pinpoint, because if they could narrow it down, it would make for a better game I think for everyone.
More soapbox ranting, I dont know I am in some kind of mood. I just let the fingers do the talking. Hey its a free world, dont let me shy you away from doing the same damn thing yourself! but it is the internet, and you never know who may come across your website and read what you wrote.
Its discouraging to see what is happening to Ukraine. I had no idea the evil that zelenskyy was capable of, and I had no greater idea of the evil that is putin himself. Infact where I am standing, I cannot see a greater good or solution in this matter. This whole arrangement is disturbing, and my opinion is just fantasy and gossip, nothing more, nothing less. It has no credibility or weight on any of the events or the matters there.
I do know one thing, when I found out my grandparents were Ukrainian that opened up to me a world of evil, I had no idea about this life or the world itself. You see, for me as a kid, it was simple. Nazi’s bad, and something about black people being slaves, and now america is at peace. But I didn’t know the deep truths of any of it. I know vague details, or what others speak and say. And then I do my due dilligence and do my own research, and even now, that doesn’t do me much good. Because its all a controvsery, or a scandal, or some kind of grand conspiracy. Everything in this life is in riddles and illusions. And its no wonder, the one thing that does that is satan. The grand manipulator, and deciever of people. We really are a simple people, so simple, that, that dumb bastard has robbed us all of our humanity.
This world desperately needs Christ. Its not a grand stand statment, its simple living life and enjoying frinedship and family. Never taking advantage of anything or anyone!
I love Ukraine, and I do love Ukrainian’s. But I also love Russians, and all of Europe. Just as I feel about Africa, Asia, Middle east… basically all of humanity. Christ revealed Himself to me, in some way that I am able to see the good in people, and not the bad. Don’t worry, I can still bring out my temperment and attitude and shift the blame. But as a whole, I do now start to look for the good in others, and not try to nitpick and find the bad. I think cultures and people are best the way they are, its what makes the world great after all. But the truth and reality of Christ will be revealed and it will overhwelm this life and usher in the return of our Lord. Even if I don’t live to see that event, I am grateful for this time on this earth.
Honestly if I was to narrow it down, I think it could quite possibly be unuiquivocally be narrowed down to the band Overcome. They actually taught me a lot about life and theology, and I hadn’t even been a christian for a long time. Add to the fact, they write music that is actually really good. This isn’t sloppy, noisy hardcore for noise sake. These songs have composition and are comrpised in complicated and definitely I think borrows more from metal than hardcore. But the band has the aesethetic and hardcore lifestyle written all over themselves, its perfectly cohesive, and for lack of a better word, it has now become what we know as metalcore.
I often frown on metalcore, because its narrowing itself down into territory that I can only describe as “scene” and “edgy”. A lot of its very gimmicky and it plays itself out in every possible formula it can, to try and do nothing but outdo and out perform others, and it just comes off as sloppy and inauthentic.
Something about Overcome, I always felt and admire is their genuine and unabashed approach not only to harder genre’s of music, but also their love and dedication to Christ. I mean you would think with music like this, it would be an outpouring of hatred for life, maybe self or even neighbor. No, but that is not the case at all here. The lyrics and words all are to do with the book, the one true book the Bible. Life lessons, and instruments of words that create motivation and passion for life and living.
I remember when I when I first got When the Beauty Dies as a kid, and I finally heard it from somebody else who gets it. He sees the sickness of porn, and lascivious lifestyles. The terrible debt that it does to a woman and a man, and well as a whole, the family and union and body.
Not sure why I am writing this, I don’t know, I just see a lot of old faces coming out with new material in the christian metal world. And its making me proud. I am uncertain what Jason Stinson thinks anymore in concerns to this music. I am sure he has torn this yarn out about a million different ways, with all kinds of different people. But him and his music did make one hell of an impact on me, and I am not ashamed to admit it!
And yes, I was more than happy with Indwelling, it was great, beyond great! but sadly, when they were starting pick up mud with their music and ministry. I was starting to enjoy actually playing in the mud, and by mud I mean sin. My life spiraled out most of my 20s and 30s, its really sad to even look at it in retrospect, how much time Ive wasted.
But I cannot focus on the past I need to MOVE forward!
Well considering the outpouring of content and information, I cannot really recon I have much here of any value that a person cannot go and do own their own. But I digress, I will share with you all whatever I fancy I will include it here.
Currently, my first project is translating the Saturn version of Cyberdoll into english. It is coming along, I have seen some progress. But I am uncertain when it will be done.
Next I am trying to prioritive and incentivize and make it a priority in creating netplay more tangible with emulation. It shouldn’t any longer be a bother or a worry to find people in a lobby or server, and be able to find people play co-operatively or versus in multiplayer games. I especially mean this in terms of the saturn and dreamcast.
Its time to get serious and by serious I mean, the proof is in the pudding. I know its a commonalaty, with every day life and everyone is accepting of it. But its time to get rid of it, and start focusing on our own responsabalilities like school and work.
I had no idea how much it affects my own psychology and how I interact with regular everyday life. Its not a fun conversation or an easy topic, to bring up with anyone, because it invites unnecessary circumstances, that can and will turn things into a bad situation, for yourself or maybe even others around you. Hormones and temperment with people are things that spontaneously respond to stimuli.
Easing tension and relaxing is nessary, but you need to address it in a healthy and productive way. Exercize is the best contendor, and hobbies and activities these are the most productive way to not only help yourself but also to help the community and the people around you.
Akward looks and weird vibes? so what! its life, and everyone has to deal with differenet degrees of stress and pains. Its not comfortable, and its not easy, that is why life has many different avenues and faculty’s to aleviate and help with the stressors and hurts. Which for me, is bible reading, praying and quiet time of reflection and being mindful of my life environment. And accurately addressing the stressors in my life, and how to address them producely not maliciously or aggressively, or selfishly. There is an ambition and a motive behind every action, its good that you get your head into the bible and the person of Christ, to know how and what you should do to address life.
So while yes, this is uncomfortable and not something I wanted to have here. It does need to be addressed and discussed.
Just got the new Hope Deferred and I am sure I am not the only one who caught this, and I am sorry if you didn’t and now you cannot unhear it, but it was just too funny for me to not say aloud. All in good fun, I have never been good with death metal vocals, or gutturals for that matter. I can do my best effort or attempt at them, but as far as actually annunciating and speaking anything decipherable, does takes a good deal of skill and effort. And for that, I leave it to the professionals.
I haven’t yet pinned the tail on this donkey, but its a banger and hard hitter for certain. This one will be on heavy rotation. Finally I can give that poor embodyment demo a rest, I listened to that probably more than what is healthy for a “normal” person. Us humans are anything but normal, in fact the longer I live on this dirt, the more I realize how disgusting and sinful man can be, me being an offensive one myself.
Not in a self righteous, or preacher kind of stance do I mean this. But this world as a whole has gone completely bankrupt, and its not because of money or resources. Its on the plain simple practice of good behavior and morals and ethics. Respect for fellow man.
Always read the label, and yes safety first! and when in doubt, ask a friend or try to get a second opinion. But above all else, unless you are doing something mechanical or arbitrary like programming honestly get a human opinion, not even so much for the advice, but just for the curiosity and sake of conversation. Its shocking how you might actually encourage a person just by being curious or asking them how they are doing. On second thought, test the waters and always tread carefully.
I have been aware of Secretion for some time, they haven’t stirred up many albums, but every once in a while we are blessed with some death metal from them. This is a new offering from them, and its a gem to be enjoyed for sure.
Great old school death metal, inhuman sounding vocals. Sean is a great guy, and I am happy to have met him.
Friday is looking to be a big day for metal fans. They are delivering an onslaught of goodies to eager ears out there. The moment we have all been waiting for has arrived.
Its become apparent to me that the Korean’s and their cash grabbing grubby mmorpg’s think they are reinventing the wheel or creating actual video games. One thing these people can learn from the Japanese is that making video games is an art and a chore, and a labor of love.
If you are looking for a quick buck or maybe even retirement you are in the wrong business.
I grew up playing games from all regions of the world. Most noticeably Japan. But as I got older I did begin to realize that a good deal of games were made in fact right here in the U.S. of A!
While every person today born after the 90s, refuse to accept and relate to America, they instead choose to abandon it and latch onto every other region of the world.
I played into same rhetoric and lies a lot of my upbringing too. In fact not until my late 20s and 30s did I begin to not take for granted being born in America.
What does this have anything to do with “core” and “base”, “game mechanics?”. Well a lot apparently, because so it seems that the rotten disgusting game devs of today think they are calling into focus proper and appropriate game development. No, indeed they are not.
“TDS is in full swing. I heard a couple older folks yesterday talking about this and how Trump is going to “blow us all up!” with his testing. People assume the worst because they want it to be true. It’s Trump, after all. Orange man bad!
“Testing” systems doesn’t mean we’re going to start setting off nukes in the desert like the 1940’s and 50’s again. We should always be testing delivery systems and controls to make sure if (God forbid) the day ever does come, our stuff actually works! Besides, Trump made that statement to basically send a message to Putin and others that we are focused on “readiness” and not complacency.” -davecfive via foxnews comment
Its almost pitiful because I do start to see the error of my ways, especially in concern to conversations with my family and other loved ones. Its almost like a defense mechanism that I developed throughout my life, and it does nothing but damage my character and the perception people have of me, after the fact. Its intolerable and belligerent, in fact very well could be an offset from addiction itself.
Watching how the left and the democratic political system respond and react to the events in this world. Illustrates and paints a picture of the person and personality. This was much of the reason, I became unwell and not happy with the disgusting and sinful life I had made for myself.
I just listened to an interview with Andrew from the band Embodyment, now Hope Deferred. During their conversation they got into it where he crossed paths with Tim from As I Lay Dying. And he wrestled with the reality of judging under the law of the bible and that of the land and this life. It was a sobering and comforting detail, because it ushered into me, a faith a commonalty and trust that you can have with fellow believers. There is a bond and a responsibility to those in the faith, it goes without saying. But in all actuality, the faith of Christianity and the bible ALL OF IT is very confusing and not very well understood yourself. This is why its painfully obvious, and yes I am speaking to myself, that its necessary to be out and be social and be involved with the lives of others.
That being said, common sense and helping not hurting should always be priority, number 1. We are in a desperate age of life. now. The tipping point for people is more than become aware and apparent. Never take lightly a relationship or fellowship, but always be wise and guard yourself from the trap of others who may have bad motives or selfish ambition.
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THREAT INTELLIGENCE BRIEFING
Subject: Security Implications of SNAP Benefit Suspension Threat Level:HIGH Date: October 29, 2025 Region: United States (Nationwide Impact)
Forwarded this email? Subscribe here for moreHelp me support churches around the US with critical info like this. A paid subscription makes this happen.Threat Intelligence Brief: Security Implications of SNAP Benefit SuspensionKeith GravesOct 29READ IN APPIf these intelligence briefs help you, please consider a paid subscription!Upgrade to paidTHREAT INTELLIGENCE BRIEFINGSubject: Security Implications of SNAP Benefit Suspension Threat Level:HIGH Date: October 29, 2025 Region: United States (Nationwide Impact)1. SummaryA federal government shutdown has halted the Supplemental Nutrition Assistance Program (SNAP), leaving millions of Americans without food benefits. This interruption removes roughly $7.8 billion in monthly food purchasing power from the economy. The result will be a rapid increase in food insecurity, especially in lower-income communities.Historically, when food access collapses, crime rates rise. Theft, trespassing, loitering, and assaults linked to desperation increase quickly. Churches and ministries are likely to face a surge in foot traffic as people seek help, and some of that activity may include agitation, disorder, or criminal intent.Church security teams must be alert. Compassion does not eliminate risk, and preparation honors both our mission and our faith.
2. Threat Assessment
Current Threat Level:HIGH Likelihood: High Nature of incidents: Theft, burglary, trespassing, property damage, and confrontations during service or aid events. Primary drivers:
Suspension of SNAP benefits due to the shutdown
Overwhelmed food banks and pantries
Political tension and blame between government parties
Public frustration escalating into anger and unrest
Churches represent both hope and vulnerability in times of crisis. Their open doors, visible generosity, and public schedules make them likely gathering points for both genuine need and opportunistic behavior.
Forwarded this email? Subscribe here for moreHelp me support churches around the US with critical info like this. A paid subscription makes this happen.Threat Intelligence Brief: Security Implications of SNAP Benefit SuspensionKeith GravesOct 29READ IN APPIf these intelligence briefs help you, please consider a paid subscription!Upgrade to paidTHREAT INTELLIGENCE BRIEFINGSubject: Security Implications of SNAP Benefit Suspension Threat Level:HIGH Date: October 29, 2025 Region: United States (Nationwide Impact)1. SummaryA federal government shutdown has halted the Supplemental Nutrition Assistance Program (SNAP), leaving millions of Americans without food benefits. This interruption removes roughly $7.8 billion in monthly food purchasing power from the economy. The result will be a rapid increase in food insecurity, especially in lower-income communities.Historically, when food access collapses, crime rates rise. Theft, trespassing, loitering, and assaults linked to desperation increase quickly. Churches and ministries are likely to face a surge in foot traffic as people seek help, and some of that activity may include agitation, disorder, or criminal intent.Church security teams must be alert. Compassion does not eliminate risk, and preparation honors both our mission and our faith.2. Threat AssessmentCurrent Threat Level:HIGH Likelihood: High Nature of incidents: Theft, burglary, trespassing, property damage, and confrontations during service or aid events. Primary drivers:Suspension of SNAP benefits due to the shutdownOverwhelmed food banks and pantriesPolitical tension and blame between government partiesPublic frustration escalating into anger and unrestChurches represent both hope and vulnerability in times of crisis. Their open doors, visible generosity, and public schedules make them likely gathering points for both genuine need and opportunistic behavior.3. Indicators to WatchIndividuals loitering near church grounds, especially after hoursRepeated attempts to access locked doors or food storage areasArguments or emotional outbursts when assistance is unavailableGroups forming around the church parking area during non-service timesSuspicious vehicles parked facing entrances or service areasSocial media chatter encouraging groups to “seek help” or “take what’s needed” from faith-based organizations
4. Recommended Actions for Church Security Teams
Increase visibility: Have uniformed security and greeters visible during all services and ministry hours.
Control access: Limit entry to one main doorway during operations or distributions. Keep all other doors locked.
Patrol regularly: Conduct frequent exterior checks of parking lots and side areas.
Establish communication: Use radios or an app-based dispatcher/call taker for quick coordination.
Partner with local law enforcement: Notify your local agency that your church may experience higher activity and request extra patrols.
Manage crowds: If your church provides food, keep the process organized and calm. Set clear limits on quantity and timing.
Secure property: Lock rooms containing food, cash, or valuable equipment. Move supplies out of public sight.
Prepare for escalation: Review de-escalation training and ensure team members can recognize pre-attack indicators such as jaw clenching, fists forming, or blading the body.
Document incidents: Write an After-Action Review (AAR) for any confrontation or suspicious behavior. Patterns often emerge over time.
5. Ministry and Messaging Considerations
Communicate the situation clearly to your congregation. Ask for prayer, unity, and awareness.
Avoid over-publicizing times of food distribution on social media.
Encourage compassion but set firm boundaries for volunteers.
Rotate volunteers and security personnel to prevent fatigue.
Reaffirm the mission: the church is not a government program but a spiritual refuge led by God’s provision.
6. Biblical Reflection
“But Peter and the apostles answered, ‘We must obey God rather than men.’” — Acts 5:29 When government systems fail, believers are reminded that obedience to God always comes first. Our calling to protect, provide, and lead does not depend on political stability. The Church’s strength has never rested on human institutions but on God’s authority and the power of the Holy Spirit.
“All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of their possessions was their own, but they shared everything they had.” — Acts 4:32–35 The early Church did not wait for help from outside. They lived in unity, sharing what they had and supporting one another through hardship. That same spirit should define us today, protecting our congregations, feeding the hungry, and showing the love of Christ through both word and action.
“All who believed were together and had all things in common; they sold their possessions and goods and distributed them to all, as any had need.” — Acts 2:44–45 The world’s systems may falter, but God’s provision never does. Preparation and security rooted in faith are not acts of fear; they are acts of obedience. Like the early believers, we rely on the Lord to meet every need and to guide our actions with discernment and compassion.
7. Conclusion
This season will test the endurance of both our faith and our readiness. The Church has stood through persecution, famine, and war because it did not rely on earthly power but on God’s strength. Remain watchful, remain prayerful, and lead with wisdom.
In His Service, Keith Graves Christian Warrior Training
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Everyday of the year triggers and reminds us of historical events. Today is no different. Its our favorite 16 bit power horse, whose reputation is much disfavored in comparison to its super brother. I didn’t first get a genesis as a kid. My first console was a nes. But I did get to enjoy it every time I got to visit my two cousins, and play it at their house.
We would thrill ourselves with titles like the original xmen game, kid chameleon, Olympic basketball and countless others. Sega always had a way with winning me over with its consoles and games. I did like my nes, but I felt with Sega, they just like one of the guys, normal a cool to hang out with, take from that what you will, I don’t know I did have a crazy imagination.
Today while hard to capture the excitement of those days, it does still manage to pull me in with its titles. I think favor of this occasion I will fire up the Genesis (or alternatively called megadrive overseas) and enjoy the classics that made console so great.
just a cool looking box art, not sure about the game
For what you ask? no idea, I can only even vaguely remember what this website is for anyway. I am beginning to see a slow trickling affect, of my accounts on a majority of video game and emulation websites.
The trans and lgbtq individuals that live and thrive on those sites are not happy with me, they target and eliminate me, accordingly. Its the same course of action on streaming websites, especially the case with twitch. The freedom of speech and having an individual opinion, just so long as you are obedient tickling and fancying ears.
This a positive and negative, because it tells me without a shadow of a doubt, these individuals will no longer be associating with me or communicating with me. But the negative being, I am now downright not permitted to use or have access to their content.
The real world is my motivation, and my objective.
Work was always a nag to me growing up, whether it was the trash, the dishes or even getting into my laundry. Everything I did seemed to be nothing but a chore, and I was driving myself insane. Grumbling and mumbling, when I don’t know if you remember or not I posted something previously here about the movie American History X, and that laundry room scene where the white inmate and the black inmate were talking to another and it was not productive, it was combative and spiteful behavior. Instead of trying to make the workday or the activity productive, they instead chose to make it into a archaic and barbaric event.
Do not grumble sweeping the floors, rejoice in knowing, your service has a benefit, and its in giving back and to helping. If you do something out of spite, or out of greed to persuade and destroy a person not build them up, that is terribly wrong and erroneous. Be helpful, and encourage others.
Specifically verse 19, but the entire chapter reveals a great error in my attitude and my ways. I have become very argumentative and slanderous.
The biggest offense to Christianity is slandering itself and conflicting ourselves with others finding the path and route to heaven.
There are several entries into hell, there is only one entrance into heaven.
I made a video recently on anger, how it effects not only the body negatively, but it also affects our own psychology and the communication and flow of our thoughts to communicate effectively with God.
we all know the saying, “free your mind and your ass will follow…”, sometimes its as simple as that. But always having discernment and wisdom from the Lord in choosing and guiding our path.
Sports are fun, its when you are playing them. Watching them on the other hand, its kind of watching the clock turn, till the next quoter is over. I am not much of a athlete if at all. My greatest achievements, are mainly doing stupid shit and coming out alive. My body has been through hell, literally. Torn distal bicep, shoulder replacement surgery, dislocated elbow. I even managed to fail riding a bmx bike on a dirt ramp, and broke my arm as a kid. I was a whiney little bitch, right chad? I think I recall it exactly like that. Its all just noise at this stage in life, I don’t care, about verbal slips of the tongue and berating rituals, its life. Its a reality, and we all have to go through it, but some people have to go through more shameful things to get out of the rut they are in. That sounds like me, alright.
Regardless, of my upbringing and what has happened to me throughout it, I am still here in this hollow husk, with a spirit and soul, and its starting come alive. This life and world around me is only by the grace of God and the surrendering of my life to the lord Jesus Christ. I don’t owe an ounce or a gram, or pound…. nope quantity of weight could ever come close to the change that Christ has made in my life. It was a surrender, and a new obedience to the living scriptures and that has brought me to the point I am at now.
Still shuffling my feet, still rubbing shoulders, and trying to keep my chin high in a world that would rather see me laying down and dying, and be in pain and misery. But there is no sympathy for anyone, that doesn’t get on their own two feet and start accepting the reality of life conquering it.
And so tonight, I am excited to see a hopefully winning game for MSU football. This rivalry between the Spartans and the wolverines has been a constant and winding number of conversations, mostly in my experience the favor going to UofM. And me being a native of Lansing, have no idea, why anyone would cheer or want a team that isn’t even in the same town that they live. I have always loved MSU, not for anything else than the fact that its a celebrated and used school in my town and city. That university has been here since back in the days when my grandparents, went and studied at it. Not me though, I went to school of hard knocks, and got my GED and hopefully soon my A+ certification, to get my foot in the door with IT.
I have not a iota or ounce of anger or hate towards anyone, other than sin. I have become overwhelmingly, conflicted with a problem, and now I know, it is indeed a evil, isn’t the sport of football, its something that goes back before even the invention of the game itself, see this kind wizardry was made back in times of when satan and God where ruling this universe.
I am a otherwise pretty happy person, as long as I know myself and my family are safe and living well, ,I am ok with the world at hand and around me. But that doesn’t mean things are perfect for me, or any of them. Or even for you the reader, if you are looking for a solution, you can find it through prayer discipline and dedicated bible reading. Its not a over night event, but it can happen and you will experience change, if it comes from your heart, but you have got to want it, and that isnt up to me, or your friends, or maybe even your own family, its an individual choice you as a person have to make. No government, no signing anything, its a bond a declaration that you make with your creator God in heaven. And believe me, He is real, and He will reveal Himself to you, not at the drop of a dime, but with faith patience and knowing the abc’s of the psalms and proverbs, you will get yourself moving right along in a good direction.
Tonight whether MSU wins or loses, I do hope that it ends with peaceful results and not a chaotic assault on our town and land. Because believe it or not, alcohol and tolerance are a thing, and when you start casually consuming too many beverages, one after another, the world starts spinning and satan starts winning. I am not a buzz kill, I am simply stating facts, keep a cool head, and enjoy yourselves but most of all celebrate your life and your friendships, with family or with distant or close people.
Take care of yourself and each other. Honestly if you ask me, a lot of the drugs that are supposed to help you psychology, are the most harmful to your health overall. Its best to just get good rest, eat a normal routine diet, exercise regularly, work and allow yourself some leisure time. Its not rocket science, but with the demand of jobs, and the tip toeing around people, who think you did this and that, it gets intimidating. But you have a world of resources now, and especially now with AI and the searching tools on the internet, everything can be answered and addressed.
But one question that cant be answered, is the one who is controlling this show, and pulling the strings. Life does have an order and a necessary, system, to keep it operating with purpose and balance. We are in a trap, and that is with God, satan and fires of hell and gates of heaven. This life and world is more than meets the eye, some things are hard to be explained with words.
So buckle up buttercup, tonight we have a battle of the millennia, are brutal divider between wolverine and spartan. Whether greek or person of interest in the creature the wolverine itself, this might just be an opportunity to see some magic happen.
Prayers and safety to all the players and staff and all of lansing and surrounding areas, lets have a good time, and enjoy ourselves. Until next time, over and out… copy, roger 99281 8332929 8761890264 I donno some random and sporadic numbers I just randomly mashed into the keyboard. The hell with this ai and artificial bullshit, give me the real deal holyfield, lets get it on!!!!
In regards to Epstein and Trump, there is no evidence to show that Trump had any involvement with crime. There is a thing called evidence, and proper attention to the matters. IF what happened then we need to see that, and be enlightened to the elements. Otherwise
Hillary Clinton’s petty attack on President Trump’s White House Ballroom renovation reveals the left’s true colors. Trump is using his own money to modernize the People’s House without costing taxpayers, while Clinton’s legacy is tainted by stealing $28,000 worth of White House furnishings. The East Wing demolition is a time-honored tradition to keep the White House relevant, yet liberals mock it because they can’t stand Trump’s success. This isn’t just about aesthetics—it’s about securing America’s future and strengthening its legacy. Trump’s leadership is about making America great again, and that’s exactly why they hate it.
I had heard this band mentioned and shared and in the case of Afflicted Truth its not good, its just a bombardment of noise and absolutely no sense or distinction in the songs. I’ve listened to a lot of death metal in my day, and most of which is not Christian. I don’t have what I would call a tall order in being able to please me, but this album from start to finish was just like a nauseating repeat of each track after another.
Christian metal is not to be taken seriously, and for good reason. Growing up and not being aware of or knowing much of any different kinds of genres of music, it was hard for me to navigate and find the “goods”. I don’t like to rub elbows with just anybody, but if I have to I hope the pursuit of advancement is in mind.
And no I am not talking about REEEE LIDGE EEE OOOON as you youngsters, like to equate it with Christ. The banquet feast and the celebration and defeat of sin and death, was no celebration it was a crucifixion and a painful cost. Betrayal, lies, deceit, greed, larceny, there was no wrong not done or shown in the bible. Those same nasty habits and behaviors still exist today, just are now more subtler and easier for the youth to disguise and hide behind in facade or grandstand statement, to declare their unequally yoked lifestyle. All of this language, and words are valid and point driven, its not my interest to pretend or to please any ears. I just want the message to get through loud and clear. Christ is the only mediator between you and death. The divide is life and death, hell and heaven. This world while miserable, and just enough to adapt to, it will come to an end whether good or bad is anyone’s guess? but I would hope in the grander scheme of things it be relatively painless, and a bit distressing, maybe confusing, but somber and immediate.
Musicians and men, we are called to be servants bondservants and slaves to the grind. Christian metal is not out to impress or wow people. Its to be involved and to be in community, and brotherhood and sisterhood with others. There is no community, and no benefit from 1-man projects. IF you are virtuoso on guitar, congratulations. But get a band together, assemble a team. The last thing you want to be doing, in a ministry is belting out 1 man bands every other 3-4 years. We already have over a dozen if not more, 1 man bands. And its nothing to be proud of, or amused by. Its lack of a better word, an inability to work with other people. The very instrumental and core of Christianity should be the body and fellowship and developing in yourself a character and a person who can cohabitate with other people. Somebody to rely on, and some somebody dependable.
I mean no words with the man who made this music, its not trash, its an honest effort, but your skills and ability could very well be used better in a fully outfitted band. Addressing this and sharing its wisdom with others will hopefully improve and better the scene. The satanist and nihilist bunch are going to be an overload of aggression and assault on your morals and ideals, and they will try to dismantle and attack your character and break you down.
The world wants American’s dead. We are consuming death, its literally destroying our lives and its killing us from within. And we buy it, and support it. I will be honest, I have been a nicotine smoker since I was a teenager. I would smoke a cigarette from friends or neighbor or any way I could get them.
As I got older, I moved onto rolling my own cigarettes which were much cheaper, and lasted me a long time. But I found the health decline, imminent with pipe tobacco. In my breathing, and the smell is awful. Not to mention the stain it would leave on my fingers. I finally got to the point, that it was just not worth it to me. Its bad enough I had different vices concerning alcohol, but nicotine needed to be snubbed.
And something else started to come into my brain tonight, in fact just as I am typing this. I started to think about America Online (AOL). When you think about the fact that why is the world trying so hard to get me online? its the pressure of 500 free hours here, and then 300 free hours there.
All throughout life I am beginning to see the cobwebs of sin starting to surface and everything is coming into fruition. This is only one small example, there are plenty of other instances as well.
keep tuned things are coming together. Also be aware that facebook banned me! I didn’t close or leave, they kicked me off the platform. Much like all social media they adhere to the satanic and perverted.
This seminar and speaking event was not anything I was looking forward to or expecting to see, but much of the nature of youtube, is that the websites that are suggested and commended to me, reflect my viewing habits. And for once in my adult life, and yes I use the term adult very carefully, because I am treading into life with some very bad habits and immaturity that I have not responded well to or taken very seriously.
The routine of life is a chore in of itself, is not always easy, especially if the world you are walking into hates and dislikes you. And this is the dichotomy and the pain of the world and sin, and the Christian. Because on the one hand, we live in a free world, that operates and functions without the legality’s of the morals and teachings of scriptures, but we are integrated into a society that is counteractive to those beliefs and they contradict our role and existence as people and believers.
My issue with this website is one and its plain and simple, I am not a good person, I have been using drugs/alcohol, pornography and masturbation, almost routinely, and have not been addressing it but letting it sit and fester and not only disturb my peace, but also disturb my progress.
Sin is not something you routinely do and get accustomed to, its something you reject and rebel against. Its not one more sip of liquor, its not just 3 more minutes and I’ll be out the door, its now and its immediate and its spontaneous.
It isn’t easy, life is not easy, its a chore and a hard reality that we all have to face and go through, one step at a time. I am sorry for removing my contents and website, it was not right and it was my pride and ego that did it, because for once in my life I am being open and honest, and its, no worry to me that people know what I am doing, because the only one I am trying to impress is God.
My life is improving and getting better, and its not been because of myself, its because of God above. Life is not about sex, pleasure and spending money on useless trivial things, its about friendship and bonding with others, something that I have not been a very good person to do those things with. Because my mind was always trapped in trying to chase after pleasure, sex and money. Its the devil’s pedigree and his main ingredients and destruction to people. Human relationships and speaking to people is the doorway to opportunity.
Christians want to help people, not hurt them, or exploit them or harm them. If your business is sin, you are going to have a lot of business doing it, but when it comes down it, the tab at the end of a shift is an eternity in hell.
On August 29, 2017, the evangelical Council on Biblical Manhood and Womanhood in the United States released a manifesto on human sexuality known as the “Nashville Statement“.[16] The statement states in part, “WE AFFIRM that the differences between male and female reproductive structures are integral to God’s design for self-conception as male or female. WE DENY that physical anomalies or psychological conditions nullify the God-appointed link between biological sex and self-conception as male or female” and, “WE AFFIRM that those born with a physical disorder of sex development are created in the image of God and have dignity and worth equal to all other image-bearers. They are acknowledged by our Lord Jesus in his words about “eunuchs who were born that way from their mother’s womb.” With all others they are welcome as faithful followers of Jesus Christ and should embrace their biological sex insofar as it may be known. WE DENY that ambiguities related to a person’s biological sex render one incapable of living a fruitful life in joyful obedience to Christ.”[17] Due to perceived homophobia, transphobia, and misogyny, the Nashville Statement has attracted controversy.[18][19][20]
I don’t care about man made creeds and manifesto’s or statements of beliefs.
The bible says its a sin, I know without a shadow of a doubt that its a sin.
So guess what? its a sin! period, there is no debate or arguing the fact. Homosexuality = sin! transgender is also a sin. In the rare case that a person is born conjoined twins, or a hermaphrodite, or any other anomaly of human life. In other words if you were born with an actual defect and it wasn’t ad mistered or accomplished with the physical interference of a doctor, it is a sin.
Anything humans touch can and will tarnish and stain another not only with their sin, but also the sin of the person themselves.
When your church leadership is teaching this, its not only hurting the church its hurting the children and giving them a false representation of a man. Growing up wasn’t easy for me, as is the case for a lot of people, in fact if you ask somebody from another areas of the world, there circumstances or upbringing could very well make mine pale in comparison. Everyone life is different and its not the same for everyone.
Growing up I couldn’t even fathom or conceive homosexuals in the church. And now trying to navigate life and find people who aren’t into this perversity is difficult.
We actually have people that think its ok to act like a homo or to behave like a slut. They also think its ok to butcher an unborn baby.
Trans identity is an issue, but the bigger and underlying issue is homosexuality.
My father was absent one, and likewise my son now is experiencing that same hurt himself. Its no excuse for my dad, or for me. But the child support division of states and cities is not looking out for the interest of the dad, its only in favor of the mother.
The diametrical and most profound difference between my son and my own biological father. Is that my biological mother she had and has legal guardianship if me and my brothers and sisters.
In the case of my son his grandfather is the legal guardian. Explain to me in any logical sense, how I am being demonized and ostracized from my son and meanwhile his own mother gets priority and favor?
Not sure how I got off on this tangent, but I will end this now.
Also if you don’t communicate with me, and all you do is want to copy my content and work, please simply stop viewing this website or anything that I do. I notice a trickling affect in others, its typically to copy and imitate.
